I know I've talked a lot about opening up myself on this podcast. There are several reasons why I needed to do this in order to feel healthy and just, in tune with this other part of me that I was shutting off. It's been, in short, amazing. There have been scary moments sure, but I never felt scared. Instead it's mostly been like picking back up where I left off. All the knowledge I had before has just grown and multiplied in this way that makes me feel closer to being whole. Soon I'll sit down and record an episode on what has happened to me thus far since opening myself back up and what exactly that means for me, but I did want to share something with you all right now.
I had started using my tarot cards again. I'll be honest, I've grown out of that deck. When I used to use them years ago, I realized I needed a new deck. My spiritual essence had grown beyond this one and while the cards were still helpful, I had just changed and needed a deck which could be stronger with me. Now though, it's like the energy of my cards have changed drastically. It's to a point that the energy feels matured, like I feel matured. I feel my cards calling to me, asking me to make the time to use them, and when I do the readings I get literally feel like they hit me with energy.
I'm not sure if that's normal. I felt connected to them before but this feels different. It feels monumental. I'm not sure if the adjustment reflects my own spiritual adjustments and alignments or what, but the reading I did on Saturday really blew me away.
I asked if I was on my spiritual path. Perhaps that's why things were different, but there were a few things it said that have really affected me. A big one, essentially, was to go back to the innocence and joy of when I was younger. You all don't know much about my childhood, but there were rarely any moments of this, but the few that were there have been up front and center ever since that reading.
It's like I've begun to adjust. I've been more experimental with foods, something I haven't done in years, something that brings me joy and light. I've been utilizing my gifts in this different way, being guided to things in a different way. One of the most incredible things is I've been happier all week.
I'm a happy person most of the time but my job, my parents, they make that very very hard. Being an empath on top of it doesn't help, or at least I used to think that but I can't even agree to that statement now anymore. It's like, somehow I let go all of those things. Somehow I reconnected with myself recently, through this tarot card reading, and it's impacted my life in so many ways in such a short amount of time.
One of the other things that have been coming to my mind a lot is looking into the supernatural again. Looking into ways to learn about my abilities. I feel like I know them, extremely well, but you can always learn more. So, I'm going to start researching free classes, blogs, etc. that help you learn about your abilities and if I find them to be helpful and of pure intent I'll share them here in case someone else needs them.
I wish you all a beautiful, thankful, and glorious day!